Wednesday, May 13, 2009


I haven't posted in quite a long time. I'm not in college anymore. Summer has officially started. Not really weather wise yet. I wish I could update you on all that happened but, I really can't because there is just so much. Either way, I will end this short post with the fact that I will be a second year freshman next year. Grrr. I'll have more to write later on.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Believe nothing on the faith of traditions,
even though they have been held in honor
for many generations and in diverse places.
Do not believe a thing because many people speak of it.
Do not believe on the faith of the sages of the past.
Do not believe what you yourself have imagined,
persuading yourself that a God inspires you.
Believe nothing on the sole authority of your masters and priests.
After examination, believe what you yourself have tested
and found to be reasonable, and conform your conduct thereto.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Letter to Future Boyfriend

Dear Future Boyfriend,

Lately I have been thinking of relationships and how I feel towards them. I've come to the final resolution that I refuse to play games, be a pawn in one, or settle for anything less than what I deserve. I've been thinking about you. You and me; together. You are nothing but an appararition at this time but one day I know you will manifest yourself in front of my eyes and I need you to know (along with myself) what I expect and what I feel I deserve. Future Boyfriend, there could be an endless list of things that I want from you but I know I cannot honestly have the perfect guy. The thing is, I don't want you to be perfect. Perfect is boring and College Girl does NOT mix well with boring or perfection. I ask for honesty, faitfulness, sweet kisses, a soft hand, and an even softer voice. I expect the ability for good conversation, good company, lots of smiles, and even the expected frowns. From you I want the moments where we make silly faces just to make the other smile. I want the moments where you're so aggravating that I want to kill you but you do something sweet to make me forget the fact that you left the toilet seat up. There will be two seperate lives between us and we will not leave our friends, families, goals, or priorities behind. But, as well as our seperate lives we will create a new one. A one including you and I as a team. You and I. That sounds nice. I don't expect flowers everyday, because birthdays and holidays are enough for me. I don't expect a shower of compliments all day, every day. Kisses will not be something I need every 10 minutes. I want to wrestle, I want you to tickle me no matter how many times I tell you that I am not ticklish, and I watn you to go to Wal-Mart and shop for makeup with me. Not happily of course. You will talk about how annoying and pointless it is, but you will do it anyways. That would be sweet. And... maybe you'll push the cart. And maybe you won't. Either way, I don't care. We will be our own person, and I expect that from you. I will not make you my priority and I hope that you don't want me to be yours. I will be there for you when your roommate yells at you, when you get a bad grade, when your day goes bad, and even when you're having a good day. I will be the ear to vent to, the arms to wrap yourself in, the lips to kiss, the hand to hold. I can be the voice that calms you, the girl that drives you wild, and I can be the one that you can always count on. I want you to be the same for me. We won't compare each other to an ex, because they don't matter to our right now, our tomorrow, our yesterday, and our days to come. K, thanks. I hope that's not too much for you.

College Girl.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

What Thanksgiving Break Really Means

Parties with all your hometown friends, DUH?! At least, that seems how all my friends breaks went. A little bit different than how mine went. I found out that most of my friends were going out to parties during times they should have been sharing with their parents. Maybe I'm niave and I should be out celebrating the holidays like "college students do". I took my break as a serious chill/down time with my mother. I worked two days, and hung out with my cousin other days. But, I hung out with my cousin with my mother and really shared some family time. I was convinced that's what break was about. Not about how close you got to kicking your sister's ass, or all your old friends you got totally wasted with.

I guess I'm going about this all wrong. Or...completely right. I'm not sure yet. [I'm thinking right! duh]
thank you and im out

Friday, November 21, 2008

College Cliques

Ah. Cliques! Of course I felt like they were going to end when I came to college because, "we are better than that now". But apparently we fucking thought way wrong. Ever since I started here, I realized that the cliques have gotten even worse, and they are narrowed down very strongly, too! So, I'm going to do my best to give you a comical look at each of these cliques...... :) ENJOY!

"The Sorority Girls": This is obvious. Greek life is a big thing on most college campus' that I toured and have heard about. But, these girls are in a clique because the girls that aren't in their sorority are already shunned out. They carry around bags with their letters on them; an attention bringer. It's all about the parties they go to, the guys they fuck, and how much alcohol they consume in one night. The small, yet still substantial, philantrohpy events they hold are something that keeps their image held high in the "grown up world". These are the girls that you will rarely find alone, and when you do find them alone you best believe they are on their cell phones talking about who danced with who last night. They run in packs which smiles plastered on to their face and uggs on their feet. They are the death of me. And, I will never be one of them!

"The Frat Guys": Another obvious. I've already wrote a blog about them so you can read about them there. Keep having your kegs and fucking those nasty girls. Pass around the STDs like their nobody's business.

"The Party People": I suppose you could say that I'm in this clique, because I party. I don't go to the BCM or christian ministires on thursday nights for "alternative fun". I drink. I smoke weed. I party. These are the people that choose to use their college freedom to meet new people and drink while doing so! The greek community can obviously fit into this category as well. But, this group is different because we AREN'T in a greek community. We are american. Not greek. And, we don't wear greek letters that "define us". What defines most of these people are what alcohol they carry into a party, and if they payed for it themselves. They miss classes due to hangovers or just the fact that they dont think the attendance policy means them as well.

"The Squares": I just felt like bringing back this old school term because I always loved it. These people go to the dance theater on thursday night because they don't go to parties. They go to what we call on my campus "CRU" Campus Crusade for Christ has been shortened to Cru for some reason. Believe me, they won't talk to you about your partying happens, they act like it doesn't happen. My roommate is one of these, and when I stroll in at three in the morning she acts like I didn't wake her up when I drop my purse onto the floor and kick off my heels and one lands in her bed. It didn't happen. Because "why would anyone go to college for any other reason but to learn?"

"The Hotties": Personally, for me, these are the people I see on campus that are BEAUTIFUL and I just don't know anything about them. They are mysterious and I can't really explain it in any other way.

"The Foreigners": Now, this is an obvious name. These are the people that I see on campus and NOWHERE else BUT campus. Are they here to learn, of course. But, do they have a social life? Because, believe me, I've never seen anyone other then black or white people at the parties I go to. Maybe they hold asian only parties and I'm obviously not inivted. This is a crew that I'm going to have to investigate a little more.

Now that I put these cliques down onto webpage...I'm not sure they make much sense. There are so many different kinds of people on campus, but you best believe that we still got those cliques and they are held highly in my mind.